My two year old son has a Radio
Flyer scooter: classic red with streamers that blow in the breeze with
near-patriotic flair. The scooter belongs in a Norman Rockwell painting, on a
marquee, and is machined from a single piece of steel to make its rider feel
like a demigod. Install an engine and you’d have an intensive care menace on
the streets, a motorized Vandal. Liam would store “bi-ke” in his crib if Mother
and I would let him. It’s his set of rebellion wheels until the BMX upgrade.
So when I explained to Liam the
other day that his ideal scooter was not designed to go down the innumerable
staircases of our apartment complex, he was understandably confused. With a
furrowed brow that seemed to say, “Why wouldn’t someone take this all-terrain
enchantment down a flight or two,” I realized we were beyond rational
negotiation. The kid can be stubborn about self-injury. Opting for shameless
bribery, I suggested we find a paved, well-lit, OSHA approved, BPA-free walking
trail. I threw in several cookies to seal the deal. “Coward,” his eyes flared,
“unworthy diaper-changing sidekick,” but he agreed. I expect worse when he hits
puberty.
The nearest trail was a far cry
from my visions of a leisurely stroll. It was more of a committed hike leading
straight up the ridge that encircled our neighborhood. Liam began scaling the
path like a Toddler IronMan competitor, so I went the distance with him. The
path was all glory: towering pines I too often took for granted, wild flowers
with names like showy fleabane, and a congregation of deer ferns people from
Eastern Washington (like myself) find exotic. Most importantly, there were
blackberries. Having lived on the western side of the Cascades for only a year
now, I found blackberries to be a welcomed anomaly. Rubus fruiticosus, a
bramble, an invasive species anyone could feel good about, inhabited most of
the landscape. Fruit that demand four bucks a carton in the grocery store hung
like multi-faceted sapphires from an endless tangle of vines. There were
hundreds, undisturbed in their sanctuary. O taste and see, they
said.
Liam would stop his scooter
every three feet or so to gather a fistful of blackberries, the juice infusing
a permanent dye into his sweatshirt. The first bite elicited “Mmm,” and the boy
was wholly converted. We ate ripe ones together and the ones with reddish
drupelets. We ate them in groups, in singles. We ate them whole, and in halves
to see what they looked like inside. We received cuts from the thorns to reach
the alluring ones buried deep. We spoiled our dinner. We wished there were
more.
Being a father is so challenging
that I often struggle to find the “meaningful” in the midst of Liam’s daily
routine. This was no such moment. As I stood watching Liam partake in the
unmerited favor of these woods, I experienced (not just understood) a poem from
Gerald Manley Hopkins that I had loved for years without knowing why. “Pied
Beauty” is comfortable with duality, with “all things counter, original, spare,
strange.” The poem marvels in the “skies of couple-colour,” “rose-moles,” and
“fresh-firecoal chestnut-falls” that comprise this transitory life. Rather than
try and resolve such incongruities with prescription or anecdote, Hopkins
worships a God “whose beauty is past change.” Even the title resists an
essentialized vision of beauty. It suggests that to encounter tension in the
natural world is to encounter the infinite.
This was my encounter. A boy who
moments earlier had a naive death wish to take his bike down a flight of stairs
was finding sustenance in the mercy of blackberries, in the extravagant droop
of their harvest. Blackberries destined to ferment on the vine were now sweet
for our choosing. Toddler care (menial, often humiliating) became an occasion
for worship: in praise of blackberries. Liam and I were equals in those woods,
two blackberry stained souls in the garden. Father and son ate without toil.
Hopkins taught me to reside in such mysteries, and to actively seek “whatever
is fickle, freckled” as I care for my son. Radio Flyer daredevil stunts and
all.
Pied Beauty / Gerald Manley
Hopkins
GLORY be to God for dappled
things—
For skies of
couple-colour as a brinded cow;
For
rose-moles all in stipple upon trout that swim;
Fresh-firecoal chestnut-falls;
finches’ wings;
Landscape plotted
and pieced—fold, fallow, and plough;
And áll
trádes, their gear and tackle and trim.
All things counter, original,
spare, strange;
Whatever is fickle,
freckled (who knows how?)
With
swift, slow; sweet, sour; adazzle, dim;
He fathers-forth whose beauty is
past change:
Praise
him.
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